my thoughts in words..

"But then he comes around, and made me understand, that i have never really been inlove before.."


Isn't it ironic that when you've made up your mind to give up on love, someone suddenly comes and let you feel what love really means.. For a change, you find yourself being pampered, loved and showered with gifts and all.. That everything is not the way you used to do in a relationship. this time, it's the other way around.

Yes it's sweet..
But i find it unfair.

There i see him go gaga in expressing his love, saying iloveyou's and hugging non stop.. while i go branding a smile saying thank you..
I do like him.. But i still can't say that i love him.. I don't know if i just can't or if i'm too scared to fall again.


It's unfair that what the past has done to you is being paid by the present.. The one who simply wish to make you happy is having a hard time just because you're afraid you'd get hurt all over again. The saddest part there is when he says that he understands.. He accepts everything and willingly will wait til he finally makes everything allright..


I don't know what to do yet.. All i know is that i'm happy you came and made me feel love again. I'm not asking you to stay, but i'm thankful that you're there..

ngayon ko lang naranasan na masaya ko sa isang taong ndi ko lubusang kilala..

ang pagkakakilala ko pa ay, gago xa at loko-loko..
may mga taong against sa nangyayari.. na aaminin ko.. nagdalawang isip ako..  pero sa nakikita ko.. ok naman siya..
sana lang totoo talaga..

complicated ang situation pero i'm willing to enter the complicated scenario..
kasi ok naman eh..

sana ndi lang ako nabubulag.. =D

i did my best to face 2011 with all happiness and positive vibes i can gather.
it seemed that my effort wasn't enough.

things went from good to worst.
i chose to keep my pride as she keeps being deceitful.
i chose to stay away to gather cool.

it's very sad to learn that after all the things we've gone through, she'll just turn away from all of it just like that...

i've been there for her since then, but i guess now, i'll let her be..